So I went to camp...

I went to a retreat this past weekend. The things that I learned there was incredible. Teamwork, new friendships, leadership skills... all this was extremely important to me. I met so many new people, learned so many new things. I realized that even though I might be a lot younger than many of the people at the retreat, I am also capable of being a leader. It's not something you're born with... it's something that you need to learn, something you need to practice and nurture. I know I'm not the most popular person at school, hell, I'm not popular at all. I don't have the brains, I don't have the talents, I can't do sports, I'm just allround sucky. But the thing is, I'm willing to learn, willing to improve. I'm sure one day, my true talents will emerge, like a butterfly from its cocoon. Although I might not be pretty or intelligent, I believe that if I try hard enough, even I can be able to go to some bigshot university and get a degree or diploma and ear lots and lots of money. Seems childish and like all typical dreams of keeners. But I'm not really a keener. I'm just a teenage girl with ambition and dreams, and a strive for success. I believe in myself, I believe in my goals. I believe I can concur all of my challenges, and become someone that everyone will look up to. I want to become a role model to children. I want to tell them that as long as they try hard, they will succeed. Although there are setbacks, there are failures, I want to be able to tell people that I made it. I have achieved my goals. I was able to pick myself up where I fell down, I kept on going, kept pushing myself to the limit, and I have accomplished something that I wanted. Something that I really have feelings for. Not something that so and so told me to do, not something that my parents want me to be. I want to be proud of myself because of something I did for myself. I don't know. Maybe all this is too surreal. But to me, this is a challenge. It is a puzzle. A puzzle that I will solve and frame up on my wall.

So i decided to draw.

Yeah i watched a bit of the phineas and ferb movie... The part where the two of em refuse to go back to their dimention because perry got captured. So here's to perry and his amazing secret agent skills. (:
Sorry bout the crappy drawing skills... I dont take art or lessons or the rest of those fancy dancy stuff.


-Claudia, signing out.
Until next time. (:

Hot guys

Ok, i know this sounds retarded, but seriously, hot guys are the shit. ESPECIALLY if they are nice and friendly and huggable and sporty and SMART. Yeah, sounds a lot like Prince Charming, eh? I wonder if there will ever be a chance for me to meet a guy like that. Maybe. Oh and i forgot, he has to be tall too. At least taller than me. I also want that guy to be lovable and adorable and does stupid things just to make me smile and make me happy. Omnomnomnom delicious. :D i prefer asians, but im not racist, so it doesnt matter what race. Aaaaaa is there a guy like this somewhere out there? And you have to be real. I dont like those fakers, those liars, those two-faced losers. Be real with me, and i'll be real with you. Oh what the hell. This isn't possible, so screw it. But no ones gonna stop me from dreaming, so i guess it's back to sleeping! (:


-Claudia, signing out.
Until next time. (:

Rainbow Veins - Owl City

I Wish I Had Friends

I wish i had friends that i can count on. Because right now, i know that if i am ever in need of someone to back me up, no one would come to my aid. It's sad, but it's the truth. Before this summer, i thought o had friends that would help me out through thick and thin. Seems like i was wrong. There's no one i can count on other than myself. But that's okay. I need to stay strong, stay positive, and keep my head held high. Easier said than done. I'll try. Is it possible to purchase off ebay a friend that never leaves your side? Just wondering. I want a friend that i can just go up to when im feeling down and he or she would just cheer me up, give me hugs, etc. That's what i need right now. I'll just have to wish harder on stars.


-Claudia, signing out.
Until next time. (:

The past, present, and future

So i havent posted here for over a year. Thought it would be nice to start again, cz i did some thinking yesterday... On my birthday. I reflected on my year, on all the people that came and left my life. I paused especially on the people that left a mark on my past. Take, for example, this one friend i met a little under a year ago. This friend was, and i assume still is, an amazing person. My friend, lets name my friend "A", and call "A" an "it". A stumbled into my life suprisingly during chinese school. I was well, attracted. Not only was it sporting this bad boy look with a hint of cuteness, but also this super stunning smile. And yeup, just like every other crazy girl out there, i managed to find him on facebook, thinking thats gonna be the only way i can talk to him. If anyone would have prepared me for what happened next, i swear, i would have passed out. "A" turned up at my school the next month. Yeah, seems like a fairytale eh? I pinched myself. Oh, how i wish now this was all just a dream. We became fast friends. So what if it was 2 years older than me? A good friend is hard to come by. It amazed me. Gave me the most amazing present ever for Christmas. Too bad i killed it in the washing machine. That also marked the beginning of the end of our friendship. Kinda wordy sentence, sorry bout that. It went away on a school trip for a week, then i went the week after. Our friendship became... Strained. It went into a relationship, and after a while, i was wiped away, like a mistake on a chalkboard. But like they say, all good things come to an end. I was very, very grateful for those couple of months of friendship. I never had a bestfriend, and "A" was the closest thing to a bestfriend i
Ever had. Its time for me to move on. As for the present, ive got to make my parents proud. Ive decided to challenge myself and finish my ARCT in a year. Get that damn diploma. Start teaching and earn some cash. Start volunteering. Sports. The future? I really want to major in psychology. Weird eh? But thats my goal. Maybe work as a first aid instructor. And learn french and spanish and japanese and korean. I really like learning languages.
Thats it for now... So.

Thanks for reading, and this is...

-Claudia, signing out. Until next time.
(: