So I went to camp...

I went to a retreat this past weekend. The things that I learned there was incredible. Teamwork, new friendships, leadership skills... all this was extremely important to me. I met so many new people, learned so many new things. I realized that even though I might be a lot younger than many of the people at the retreat, I am also capable of being a leader. It's not something you're born with... it's something that you need to learn, something you need to practice and nurture. I know I'm not the most popular person at school, hell, I'm not popular at all. I don't have the brains, I don't have the talents, I can't do sports, I'm just allround sucky. But the thing is, I'm willing to learn, willing to improve. I'm sure one day, my true talents will emerge, like a butterfly from its cocoon. Although I might not be pretty or intelligent, I believe that if I try hard enough, even I can be able to go to some bigshot university and get a degree or diploma and ear lots and lots of money. Seems childish and like all typical dreams of keeners. But I'm not really a keener. I'm just a teenage girl with ambition and dreams, and a strive for success. I believe in myself, I believe in my goals. I believe I can concur all of my challenges, and become someone that everyone will look up to. I want to become a role model to children. I want to tell them that as long as they try hard, they will succeed. Although there are setbacks, there are failures, I want to be able to tell people that I made it. I have achieved my goals. I was able to pick myself up where I fell down, I kept on going, kept pushing myself to the limit, and I have accomplished something that I wanted. Something that I really have feelings for. Not something that so and so told me to do, not something that my parents want me to be. I want to be proud of myself because of something I did for myself. I don't know. Maybe all this is too surreal. But to me, this is a challenge. It is a puzzle. A puzzle that I will solve and frame up on my wall.