Mindblown while shopping for groceries

Trolling around an asian supermarket, and i found this wonderful pack of gummi... dummies. (:
Wait... these are DUMMIES?!

Hahahha okay.

-Until next time,
Claudia

Crappy Week.

Had a uber crappy week this week. All these people giving me crap, wasn't even funny. But it's amazing how seeing someone that's your legit friend can make your day so much better. People I can just be ME around... those people that will accept you for who you are and what you stand for... they are the people you need to keep with you forever. I need more friends like these ones... Sometimes, I wonder if I should just disappear. Not like in the "I'm gonna kill myself way," but more of "I'll move to another city or country and see if anyone notices" kind of way.
On the plus side... now I get to see who them fakes are, and who are the people that will stick with me through think and thin. <3
Volunteering tmr, first time this school year, woot woot!
Vball season, dance squad tryouts soon (LOL ikr dance squad), We Day selection list is coming out soon, QCC Vice Prez spot up for grabs... (hope to make it!), or else it's QCC Communications Team or QCC Social Communicator or QCC Volunteering Group... or if worse comes to worse, the QCC Fine Arts team.
LOL QCC is a non-profit organization that does a variety of events, with the main purposes of creating critical creativity, giving back to the community, broadening our social group, and having fun. (:
So yeah. BUSY BUSY BUSY GAAAAAAAAH D':

School & Them Fake People

So many fake people around, it's kinda scary. Those people who I thought were my friends actually are the ones who talk shit about me. It's not fair. I'm trying to be me, trying to get these people to accept me, trying so hard to not upset someone, and all I get is my kindness thrown back into my face. Apparently, people aren't supposed to be friends with me because I'm too competitive. I'M TOO COMPETITIVE. Anyone that knows me for longer than a year knows that I'm not competitive. I'm the least competitive person in my entire incentive class. I just try to get good grades so that I can keep my phone and internet use. But obviously, no one cares, and even if they knew, they'd still make it sound like I'm BS-ing. Seriously, if you're in an INCENTIVE class and you're NOT competitive at all, something's wrong. Big time. Everyone wants to get good grades. I don't see where the problem lies. Perhaps it's because I sometimes refuse to show my grade, but then again, other people don't either.

Irony right here: The people that have been spreading crap about me were my close "friends" last year, not only that, those people are the EXTREME overachievers. Every subject 90%+. Honestly, I'm the kid that barely makes the low A, high B. Maybe it's because I'm in the middle. Maybe that's why people hate me.
I play sports, but not competitively. I join only because I need to lose weight and maintain a healthy diet. Because I'm a pretty committed person, I know that if I join a team, I'll follow through and go to all the practices. That's the type of person I am. If I don't play sports, I'd spend all my time in front of the computer or on my phone, blogging or surfing the net.

You know my name, but not my story. Darlings, don't judge a book by it's cover. Get to know me before you diss me. At least some of these people actually come up to my face and say shit about me in my face.
I don't know what hurts more... getting it said to your face, people saying it behind your back, or people saying it behind your back and then you find out later. From someone else.

Emotional, physical, and mentally sore. I need to watch my drama. -sighs-
Volleyball all day, erryday. So sore, so sore. So much stuff happened this week, my mind is legit blown.
3 tests this week. 3. My brain does not have such high capacity at the beginning of the year.

Until Next Time,
-Claudia

I just realized... I have no followers.

So technically, I'm typing to no one. But that's alright. This week has been pretty hectic. Trying to work out my schedule, classes, homework, and starting my extra-curriculars. I'm pretty happy right now with my life, because I'm pretty sure I've worked out a balance between my "online" life and my normal everyday one. Being a crazy internet addict like me, it's kind of hard to say, "Okay, I'm done with the computer for the day." It's just not possible. My homework also involves the computer. I don't have a lot of self control when it comes to spending unnecessary time on the internet. But that's alright. I need time to express myself and give myself a break. Okay back to homework now. (:

Until next time,
Claudia

Sowwy for no recent posts...

But new school year and all that jazz makes it kinda hard to update my blog. As well, I've been trying to organize my school year, trying to balance my volunteering, schooling, and extra-curriculars. This year, I'm more busy then ever. I've decided to go on with my piano, so I'm taking my ARCT next August. It's gonna be a challenge, because as everyone knows, I didn't give a crap about piano before. But now, I've been given the option to finish it in 1 year, compared to the normal 1 1/2 year. As well, I'm doing theory too. That's going to be crazy. actually. Then I have Girl Guides, and it's my last year as a Pathfinder, so I need to get my Canada Cord... and I have chinese school, and math tutor, and I'm taking up Taekwondo again, need to make time to get my shooting license... so much to do, so little time. I also want to join my school sports team and still have time to blog and spend time with my friends and family. As well as watch some Taiwanese drama. Oh dear oh dear. I have to do min. 60 hours of volunteering this year, and I really don't know if I can. Also, I'm planning on taking early morning choir, ICT 11, and science, english, and socials incentive. Incentive I can manage... Honours math 9... not so sure. Especially when it means I have to take my Provincials this year. and now because gr.12 provincials have been cancelled... ALL MY PROVINCIALS COUNT. D": it's a make it or break it. (I need an A in every provincial in order to be eligible for scholarships.) All this stress... but I'm sure I'll manage. Oh and ofcourse, did I mention I've now got 3 blogs to manage? And yes, I will try to keep them as updated as possible. (:

Until next time,
-Claudia

I went on a vacation

I went on a vacation, hence the lack of posts. Travelling within your own province is quite a sight. Honestly, I never knew there could be such great contrast between just a couple of hours drive. The beautiful scenery, the different types of people, the different way of life. At the moment I'm typing this, I'm still on vacation. I just don't have wifi. I don't even have network on my phone. Yup, I'm up on a mountain in Castlegar, living at my auntie's place. They have 2 big dogs, Harley and Luke. I smell like dog most of the time. Being next door to nature is really different from city life. You walk out the door and BAM you're standing on gravel road, not one moving car in sight. Not one person in sight either. But holy crap is this place cool. We drove to Nelson, about an hour drive. I sat on this trolley car thing, went to this street market, and bought natural soap. Right now, I'm watching Batman on a 52" TV. I think. It seems bigger... I also went to a hotsprings. All natural. (: Oh maah gawd i went shooting ommmaahgawwwd.
:O Check out the pictures below!!


That's the trolley



Moooostache candy!! (:



Ainsworth hot springs. (:



The big TV LOL



Me and Harley!



I'm ugly, but the waterfall is cool.



Me and the raaaaaam! :D



Sexy smores. Waaaant some? (;



Me shooting (: (:
-Claudia, signing out.
Until next time. (:

So I went to camp...

I went to a retreat this past weekend. The things that I learned there was incredible. Teamwork, new friendships, leadership skills... all this was extremely important to me. I met so many new people, learned so many new things. I realized that even though I might be a lot younger than many of the people at the retreat, I am also capable of being a leader. It's not something you're born with... it's something that you need to learn, something you need to practice and nurture. I know I'm not the most popular person at school, hell, I'm not popular at all. I don't have the brains, I don't have the talents, I can't do sports, I'm just allround sucky. But the thing is, I'm willing to learn, willing to improve. I'm sure one day, my true talents will emerge, like a butterfly from its cocoon. Although I might not be pretty or intelligent, I believe that if I try hard enough, even I can be able to go to some bigshot university and get a degree or diploma and ear lots and lots of money. Seems childish and like all typical dreams of keeners. But I'm not really a keener. I'm just a teenage girl with ambition and dreams, and a strive for success. I believe in myself, I believe in my goals. I believe I can concur all of my challenges, and become someone that everyone will look up to. I want to become a role model to children. I want to tell them that as long as they try hard, they will succeed. Although there are setbacks, there are failures, I want to be able to tell people that I made it. I have achieved my goals. I was able to pick myself up where I fell down, I kept on going, kept pushing myself to the limit, and I have accomplished something that I wanted. Something that I really have feelings for. Not something that so and so told me to do, not something that my parents want me to be. I want to be proud of myself because of something I did for myself. I don't know. Maybe all this is too surreal. But to me, this is a challenge. It is a puzzle. A puzzle that I will solve and frame up on my wall.

So i decided to draw.

Yeah i watched a bit of the phineas and ferb movie... The part where the two of em refuse to go back to their dimention because perry got captured. So here's to perry and his amazing secret agent skills. (:
Sorry bout the crappy drawing skills... I dont take art or lessons or the rest of those fancy dancy stuff.


-Claudia, signing out.
Until next time. (:

Hot guys

Ok, i know this sounds retarded, but seriously, hot guys are the shit. ESPECIALLY if they are nice and friendly and huggable and sporty and SMART. Yeah, sounds a lot like Prince Charming, eh? I wonder if there will ever be a chance for me to meet a guy like that. Maybe. Oh and i forgot, he has to be tall too. At least taller than me. I also want that guy to be lovable and adorable and does stupid things just to make me smile and make me happy. Omnomnomnom delicious. :D i prefer asians, but im not racist, so it doesnt matter what race. Aaaaaa is there a guy like this somewhere out there? And you have to be real. I dont like those fakers, those liars, those two-faced losers. Be real with me, and i'll be real with you. Oh what the hell. This isn't possible, so screw it. But no ones gonna stop me from dreaming, so i guess it's back to sleeping! (:


-Claudia, signing out.
Until next time. (:

Rainbow Veins - Owl City

I Wish I Had Friends

I wish i had friends that i can count on. Because right now, i know that if i am ever in need of someone to back me up, no one would come to my aid. It's sad, but it's the truth. Before this summer, i thought o had friends that would help me out through thick and thin. Seems like i was wrong. There's no one i can count on other than myself. But that's okay. I need to stay strong, stay positive, and keep my head held high. Easier said than done. I'll try. Is it possible to purchase off ebay a friend that never leaves your side? Just wondering. I want a friend that i can just go up to when im feeling down and he or she would just cheer me up, give me hugs, etc. That's what i need right now. I'll just have to wish harder on stars.


-Claudia, signing out.
Until next time. (:

The past, present, and future

So i havent posted here for over a year. Thought it would be nice to start again, cz i did some thinking yesterday... On my birthday. I reflected on my year, on all the people that came and left my life. I paused especially on the people that left a mark on my past. Take, for example, this one friend i met a little under a year ago. This friend was, and i assume still is, an amazing person. My friend, lets name my friend "A", and call "A" an "it". A stumbled into my life suprisingly during chinese school. I was well, attracted. Not only was it sporting this bad boy look with a hint of cuteness, but also this super stunning smile. And yeup, just like every other crazy girl out there, i managed to find him on facebook, thinking thats gonna be the only way i can talk to him. If anyone would have prepared me for what happened next, i swear, i would have passed out. "A" turned up at my school the next month. Yeah, seems like a fairytale eh? I pinched myself. Oh, how i wish now this was all just a dream. We became fast friends. So what if it was 2 years older than me? A good friend is hard to come by. It amazed me. Gave me the most amazing present ever for Christmas. Too bad i killed it in the washing machine. That also marked the beginning of the end of our friendship. Kinda wordy sentence, sorry bout that. It went away on a school trip for a week, then i went the week after. Our friendship became... Strained. It went into a relationship, and after a while, i was wiped away, like a mistake on a chalkboard. But like they say, all good things come to an end. I was very, very grateful for those couple of months of friendship. I never had a bestfriend, and "A" was the closest thing to a bestfriend i
Ever had. Its time for me to move on. As for the present, ive got to make my parents proud. Ive decided to challenge myself and finish my ARCT in a year. Get that damn diploma. Start teaching and earn some cash. Start volunteering. Sports. The future? I really want to major in psychology. Weird eh? But thats my goal. Maybe work as a first aid instructor. And learn french and spanish and japanese and korean. I really like learning languages.
Thats it for now... So.

Thanks for reading, and this is...

-Claudia, signing out. Until next time.
(: